so ive been done with rehab for a little now and its pretty sweet. ill be moving to chicago with my baby boy in about 3 weeks and im more nervous and excited than ever!!

I have court june 4th... day after graduation and im real nervous, but im excited to see whether or not itll be over with this time and what they plan on doing... eeek!

i also got suckered into chairing one of my aa meetings. icky!!! chairing a meeting for those of you who dont know, really just means to run the meeting. something that i DO NOT want to do. especially because im not whole heartedly into it and i only go to please my parents and keep them off my back... i dont know. at least it will only be for a little while.

well thats how things are right now... ive pretty much just been planning the move lately. especially since im done with highschool!! class of 2007!!

prom was amazing and i had mucho fun with cassy. now i just need to get ready for college. i plan on going down to moraine on wednesday and see what i have to do. however i have no idea what im doing so im kinda nervous. eh well see, if i stumbble and fall on my face then i fall on my face. shit happens.

well thats it. i cant wait to get outta here. i cant wait to be done with court. i cant wait to get completely hammered. i cant wait to start college!!

sooo today was amazing!!!  I found out that Ill be graduating outta rehab next monday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I also have court that day.... but hopefully itll be okay, well see, I have no control over it.

I also got an e-mail from my guidance counselor telling me that she has a copy of my ACTs so that I can take them to Moraine for when I register.

AHHHHHHH im so syked!!! done with treatment soon, graduating highschool in 3 weeks, and moving out in about 4-5 weeks!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today ended up being an awesome day.

i hung out with my sponsor forever and im on step 4!!! wooo!! god im syked.

i work tomorrow. i need to get some sleep.

goodnight.

I have been updating this more for some reason. probably because i know no one reads it and because i cant feel like i can do it on myspace. thats become its own fucking world. kinda scares and disgustes me all at the same time.

so tonight as been just kind eh. school was okay, nothing special. and treatment was just fucking gay. stef was bein a jackass to me during the meeting. it aggrivates me that he thinks he can do that because im his sister. ... that should be more of a reason NOT to do it.

I also have this urge to drink right now. kinda fucked up. if i wasnt in treatment this wouldnt be such a problem or an urge. id either just bitch cuz i dont have anything to drink or id drink. but noooo because im in rehab and what not i cant. plus since they make us keep track of our sober time... my 6 months clean actually mean something to me. DAMNIT!! this sucks. id kill to be drunk again. ... arrggg that sounds so bad. makes me think twice you know? maybe you dont. either way it doesnt matter to me. I just REALLY need to get that thought out of my head right now.

moving on...

I work tomorrow. hopefully itll be a good day. then im going to my meeting and hopefull ill be seeing Becky afterwards. 4th step here we come!!??